Where we at?

WTF.....? 

It has been 2 1/2 months after the horrible accident.  I fell of the wagon pretty hard.  Well excuses are like assholes, everybody's got one, and some people are one.  I really link my downfall to that Noro-virus that I had back in January.  That got me back on the sugary items.  Then I got a promotion and started working in a different location.  My eating schedule got thrown off, and water consumption was changed.  I lost my ability to have my water bottle at my desk.  I used to have a break before lunch to get in a small snack. Now I just have a longer lunch.  I need to be more conscious of drinking my water.  Then the travel time increased by an hour to and from work.  I found myself falling back into my old habits of Dunkin Donuts coffee's and DONUTS!!!!!  Like I said before, EXCUSES!!!!

So, is that where everything went wrong, or was it something more?  I think it goes deeper then that.  I think I need to rediscover my WHY.  My purpose/vision and why for what I do.  I have read in many books that without a vision the people parrish.  When the going gets tough, if your why is not strong enough, it will not inspire you make it through.  I believe that is what happened.

My initial purpose was to get my body healthy enough to not have to take pills for the high blood pressure and the diabetes.  Second, I wanted to keep up with my wife who was losing a bunch of weight.  Hey I wanted to look and feel better. 

Well in January the Dr told me that I would not have to take any medications and my blood work was the best it was for as long as I can remember.  I had lost over thirty pounds and was feeling great.  My wife kept steaming along and has reached her goal and slowly started to reintroduce items back into her diet. 

Now I realize that my conditions can come back if I gain the weight and start eating like crap again, so I need to get sorted and resume the journey. It was such a slow progression when I lost my momentum. First, it was a donut on Fridays on the way to work.  Then quickly it turned into 3-4 per week.  Then the gloves came completely off with the bread, soda and other carbs.  Horrible progression...

Now here I sit at 261.5# as of this morning.  This is a huge turn around from the 247# I was at back in January.  That is a 13# swing in 2.5 months.  I guess the one bright side that has not wavered is my daily trip to the gym.  I still wake up at 4:30 M-F to go to the gym.  I have made some great strength gains.  I know I would look much better without the excess weight.  I made a pledge to myself that I ain't going back to where I was before.  I need to put the breaks on and come hard right rudder.  I need to get back to the zone.  

I have 31 days until my annual golf trip.  I will make a new goal or being 250# or less by Friday 5/19/17.  

There it is.... I have put it out there....  The powers that be will hold me to it.