I FEEL LOST

I have finally gotten back to make a post. It has been almost a month since the last one. There have been some changes, most of them bad. I was on a good roll with the exercise and trying to get by with my nutrition. I have been going to the gym on a routine basis. I am really happy that I have been able to make it on a regular basis. I have seen some size and strength gains over the last two months. I really love my upper body days. I have really loved it so much that I have managed to get an impingement in my left shoulder. It hurts when I do push ups, but I can do flat bench and d/b military press.
I have been getting up at 4:30 am. I have been taking a creatine supplement. My nemesis has been and always will be, nutrition... I need to try to get more sleep also. I usually get to bed by 11pm and back up at 4:30. I don't know how much more I can get in but I will try.

I have managed to gain back most of what I lost. I did a weigh in an hour ago and it said 251.5#. I feel lost....I need to find that next marker on the path. I have been able to get down to the mid 230's a couple of times after a strict diet and some fluid changes. I have never been able to get to the next level and progress downward. I will admit that I have not been 100% on any nutrition plan that I have started. I know that this is thee most important aspect of weight loss. I am also running into some financial times where I am not able to get the things that I should be eating on a regular basis. I can't keep using that excuse either. I will have to do the best with what I have.