Lost, but now I'm found...

I have been away for quite awhile. It was a combo of the new job and getting adjusted to the rotating schedule, and trying to adjust with the eating schedule. I have not done well with either for the last 5 months. Then the fall turned into the winter and all the wind was blown out of my sails. I thought that with the new year coming I would catch another wind, but it just did not happen. I know.. I know.. these are all excuses that seem really good to me, but they seem lame to the rest of you. Oh, how we try to justify ourselves and our actions.

I realize that the only one that can do this for me, is ME. People can comment, encourage, and critique, but no one else is there when the alarm goes off at 0430 when its GO time. I am the one that needs to get up and do what I know I should.

I realize that this is kind of cliche` to say that I will start on Monday with the entire plan (exercise and nutrition). I will continue to exercise from now on, but there are some things that need to be made before they go bad. They are not totally bad, yet not authorized. The times are tough and the budget is tight. I can't afford to throw away good food right now. I realize that I can still eat it, just in moderation. Keeping my portions under control is my primary focus this time around.

I will update my stats on Monday. I will say that as of this morning my current weight is 237.5 that is up 8.5 lbs since December. I worked far to hard to get those 20 lbs off and now they're coming back.

I am not going to say I don't know how it happened. I DO know!! And it's not because of holiday meals. It's going back to fast food almost everyday at least once if not twice a day. Drinking soda instead of water. I reverted right back to the old ways. Well this time I realize it and plan to intervene before it gets any worse.